This poem is from the talented artist and writer Jennifer Burton. You can find her on
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Etsy.
I’ve been dying for a long time
and I’m not talking about the decaying kind that we are all doing
I’m talking about daily dying death
Roadkill: The way we feel it until we don’t
I’m talking about coloring in the lines
I’m talking about how filth is human and a human is filthy but so very blessed with showers and toilets, soap, trash cans and landfills
Dust equals dirt, but dirt was dead skin first, and dead skin was once you and you were once alive
I’m talking about how you were once a howling wolf
Then turned jealous of howling wolves
Then turned fearful of howling wolves
Then turned indifferent
I’m talking about the death of the wildebeest
Born when you were born, when I was born
Born howling at the moon, scared and angry,
but mostly fierce and shining
Bright
like a firefly
if a firefly was also a sun
Now what have we become?
I’ve been dying for a long time, and decay is not the worst kind of death
No
The worst kind of death?
is when the beast quits rearing its ferocious, ugly head and you start to think life is a paint by number, that ducks really do belong in a row, that a family belongs in a house and a house belongs in a world made bigger and better-faster-stronger by the dollar and sweat off your back
I’m talking about roadkill
Coloring in the lines
streets upon streets empty of wild beasts running, drumming, howling
With brass knuckles, celebratory trumpets, gloriously bloody knees
You did this to yourself
You breathe in the trees and give all your air to gossip, meaningless lists and plans
You take it all for your stupid lungs and give nothing to anything real or burning
Lambs lie down before slaughter
But no one can slaughter the wildebeest
Only beat it into a shadow
that would still roar had it one breath
To breathe